Over this past week, I’ve gradually decorated my new office – to the point that it now finally feels “my own”. It’s been a lot of fun filling the shelves with my own books, the walls with my own diplomas and pictures, the desk with my own supplies, etc. It still has more work to be done (you will see below that some bookshelves are still empty) – but it’s certainly coming along quite nicely! Here are some pictures of what it looks like so far (it’s difficult to capture everything due to the shape of the office!):
I’m glad that I’ve finally gotten this mostly done – since I’ve now been in this wonderful new position for nearly a month! It’s been one of the best months of my life so far – which honestly feels a bit weird to say. This isn’t where I expected to be, and yet, it’s so much better – God has blessed me in so many ways. And, for the first time in a long time, I feel that I’m in a place that I’m going to be for a very long while. This may, of course, change – who knows what God has planned. But right now, everything is pointing to this position being very long-term.
This, too, feels a bit weird – simply because I’ve been thinking about “the next thing” for so much of my life. From grade school, to college, to graduate school, to internships and fellowships… everything has been about getting to the next step. I’ve always known that where I was and what I was doing was not permanent – that it was just a passing phase (even if a good one, and an important one), as I was preparing for something better.
Of course, even now, I know that this is still really a “passing phase” (one that may last for many years, but still, it shall pass). From future promotion possibilities, to getting a PhD, to teaching new classes each semester – my job here will continually change and grow. And, at some point, I expect God will call me somewhere else entirely – whether that’s in the area of library directorship, or educational leadership, or maybe something completely different. But this still isn’t exactly what I mean, because even once I’m in the final position of my lifetime, that too shall pass. I cannot pretend to know where God will lead me, but I do know that anything on this earth is temporary. Everything on this earth is simply preparation for something else – something infinitely better.
This is such a valuable truth to dwell on. While I was in high-school, I worked to prepare for college. While I was in college, I worked to prepare for graduate school. While I was in graduate school, I worked to prepare for my first professional job. But through all of this… I should be working with Heaven in mind. I should be working on growing closer to Him; becoming more like Him; loving Him and loving others, more every day. After all, eternity is the final destination – all the rest of this is just temporary.
As I continue on here in my work (here at MNU, here in Olathe, here with my family and friends, here in all of the places God’s called me right now) – I must always keep my final destination in mind. Hopefully, this will significantly affect the daily choices and decisions that I make. Hopefully, this will help me become more like Him.